She's just somebody that I used to know now

That feels incredibly fucked up to say, but that is how it is and that is the mindset I need to keep. I'm not sure how long it is going to take to be comfortable with it, but I understand it is how it has to be. I've been thinking about my practice of self medication since it's violently reared it's stupid face again. It's really the only way I've ever known to deal with shit, which possibly sounds quite cliche'. So, I look at it like this...something sucks and wrecks your face. Shit can get heavy real quick right? Self medication is like a fucked over airbag. When you wreck your car, the idea is that at the moment of impact the airbag will release preventing the abrupt introduction of your face to the steering wheel/dash right? Like a fucking cushion of sorts...protecting you from the brunt of the accident. Some things in life are similar to a car wreck in the sense that they are unexpected, unpleasant, and untimely. Maybe I need to just stop "wrecking cars".